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Saturday, April 14, 2012

Writing… my new found friend.

 

I started to write essays when I am in grade school. I used to write good essays. That’s my favorite type of poetry. When I write, I can say what’s on my mind, what I wanted to say. I always lack courage to say what I wanted to say and I use writing as the best alternative. Writing has always been my passion but I really don’t have time to write nowadays but the hunger and passion is still there, I guess you will never lose that passion of you really wanted something.

I write when I am sad, I write when I am happy, I also write when I am mad and when I am in objection. Writing makes me feel good. It is an effective outlet for me to release my emotions. People say that the tongue is a double-edged sword so I find writing as an intellectual way of self expression. 

2% LIDOCAINE



You might be surprised about the title of this blog; Lidocaine huh, sounds familiar to the medical people like me and to not so medical but somehow knows the basics of medicines and pharmaceutical drugs. When I think of Lidocaine, I think of “PAIN” and I think of “NUMB” at the same time, wishing that these two always come together.

I’ve gone to the dentist 8 hours ago and I lost a tooth, one of my left lower molars. I was amazed of how a tooth looks like when it’s out of our gums, its inside is much longer than the outside, how the hell did it grew like that? Hahaha. The dentist put a topical Lidocaine on my gums proximal to the tooth that needs to be extracted. After 2 minutes, she injected 2% Lidocaine on the areas next to the tooth. We waited for another 2-3 minutes before the extraction of the tooth. While waiting, I slowly felt the numbness on the lower left side of my mouth, my tongue and my lips, and I can barely talk with that kind of feeling. I have a lot of “if’s” and “but’s” on my mind, my mind wandered.

I just thought that if the pain is unbearable, why we have to feel another pain to let go of that pain? Sounds confusing but makes sense to me. I guess it’s human nature, to feel a lot of pain, to make us realize how stressful and at the same time how precious our lives can be;  and without pain, people never learn and never change for the better, in vernacular, “hindi na nadadala”. But there are different kinds of pain; emotional pain, physical pain, financial pain (?), mental pain (information overload) and a lot more, it varies based on the people who experience it since we have different levels of perception; what’s more painful to me can be less painful to you and vice versa.

I, like any other person has experienced different kinds of pain, different levels of perception, different causes, and with that, I applied different remedies and coping mechanisms. When my back hurts, I distract myself but when my heart hurts, I cry, and that’s normal. Emotional pain is my most hated kind of pain. I remembered how painful it was when I had my labor on my first born son, it’s the most painful physical pain I encountered in my whole life (but so rewarding and self fulfilling). Good thing we have anesthetics, sedatives, etc to fight those pains, some are addictive, some are not. Some needs prescription and dosage, some are over the counter. Some are cheap and some are freakin’ expensive. But they’re labeled the same, we call them “drugs”, “painkillers”, “pain reliever”, “analgesics”, etc.

This are the last “if’s” and “but’s” in my mind before I went out at the dental clinic – What if we have over the counter or prescription drugs for emotional pain? What if everyone will just feel numb during every crisis? What if no one experiences pain, what will the world be? I guess that would be great and everyone will just feel amazed as how amazed I am seeing how my tooth looks like out of my gum…BUT does it really matter? To feel numb on every pain? Without pain, life will be useless, life will be easy, and life will be boring, life will be shallow. We will be like walking robots feeling numb. No more “SORRY”, no more forgiveness and reconciliation, I will really hate that kind of world. Masochists and sadists will also hate a world without pain. I conclude, pain is a significant thing like air and no one can change that.

Now, time for my analgesics, I can’t skip one ‘coz I gotta work in the morning. Oh how I love pain, no pain, no gain. ;)

Friday, November 25, 2011

My Monument: Brent Yohanne

WISHES FOR A FRIEND

I wish you happy memories of old yesterdays, may you accept all the bad things that happened to you and learn from your mistakes. Do not live with the leftovers of the past.

Count your blessings and be grateful for all that has been.

I wish you further serenity with each sunrise. Let each day be a new beginning.

I wish you a beautiful tomorrow. Dream and do your best to make it come true.

Keep on dreaming, not to live in a world of utopia but to be creative to find new meanings in life.

I wish you good health, may you value the life that was given to you.

I wish to see the achievements in your endeavors.

I wish you prominently the love and affection of family and friends. You need them; you need each other. We cannot do it alone in life.

I wish that God’s generous blessings be with you all the days in your life. God walks with you in joy and in sorrow, in good and bad days.

Let these wishes not simply be some nice words but a promise that we shall try to live a life with meaning and  direction.

Monday, April 12, 2010

My Favorite Quotations

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."
— Nicholas Sparks (A Walk to Remember)

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PEOPLE CHANGE!

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"There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."
— Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook)

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Fight your fears; dream what you want to dream. Be what you want to be. Go where you want to go. Don’t be afraid to face countless obstacles along your way. The only real elegance is the mind; if you’ve got it, the rest really comes from it.

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Bob Ong: Kung NANGANGATI ka. . . huwag
mong gawing PANGKAMOT ang Boyfriend ng iba! ^^

I am



VIJAY ♥ ♥ ♥
PHOTOGRAPHY is my greatest passion
I love Psychiatric Nursing.
I want to have a pet, which is penguin.
I find it so hard to trust people..sorry!
I am a traveler.
I love writing essays.
I was once a choir member.
I admire Oprah.
I have a fear of lizards and snakes.
I am a member of Philippine National Red Cross.
I love listening to music.
I am sentimental and narcissistic.

i wanna be someone else... maybe a writer or a photographer. i want to make a name for myself, something that will make me proud of. i also want to hook into surfing but i don't have yet my own surfboard.

Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Great listener.
Very Good at confusing people...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
I will not take any crap from anyone.
I like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily.
I am great at losing things and i am forgetful.
I can be very sarcastic and childish at times.
Trustworthy.
Always happy.
VERY Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing.
VERY FORGIVING.
Loves to make out.
Has a beautiful smile.
Generous.
Strong.
THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

Let Go Of Old Baggage

Was it something your parents did 20 years ago? Something a customer said last week? Or something a spouse or friend said yesterday?


Old baggage is emotional stuff we carry around with us for days, months or even years. It is usually negative stuff like old hurts, resentments, anger or some kind of pain inflicted by another person. It can also be just carrying around some old guilt, failure or fear that impacts our current relationships and life in general.


Why do people hold on to all of these old feelings? Everyone moves through life with their own very personal agendas, needs, and life issues. Old baggage starts to feel very comfortable after a while, so comfortable as a matter of fact many people die never able to let go of these hurts, slights, and pain.


There is one very good reason to let go of all of this stuff. One of the major causes of stress today is suppressed emotions that fester in the body taking their eventual toll on some aspect of our physiology. One of the biggest causes of stress today is all of this old baggage. So why let it go? It may kill you if you don't. What do you need to let go of today? What is preventing you from letting it go? What harm is being caused in a current relationship, your career or business by not letting it go?

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